Progress

Well, It's probably all water but I'm down 3 pounds so far this week. Feels too early to celebrate but I'm happy all the same. I'm going to go with it and try to keep on track today. Mostly I'm avoiding any white carbs and no sugar. I'm trying to have some moderation so I don't fail and get frustrated with myself. It's going to be a busy day out and about. Work early this morning, orthodontic appointments and guitar lessons so eating today might be a challenge.

Karie - yes, caffeine - honestly tho, it's Diet Pepsi that I'm referring to. The aspartame is horrible for me. I'm rather reactive to it too. I've had a cup of tea a day and do fine with that, but the soda caffeine that I love needs to be eliminated FOREVER!

Susanne - Thanks for your pm. I'm going to look into that. The quick results are very appealing, but I want to make sure I wouldn't lose then regain. Thank you for thinking of me!

Shelly - Thanks for your note too. I'll write back to you later today!

Thanks for reading, commenting, caring! LOVE!

Sick

I'm sick. tired. still working. still caring for kids. sleeping early every night. trying to eliminate caffeine while I'm at it. yes, again. I know. I love that you miss me! Thanks for letting me know. I'm working on my eating, I'm working on getting up early enough to exercise in the mornings. I'm just doing the getting up part right now. My elliptical is getting fixed today, so exercise will come soon enough. I'm very ready for the weekend and the week is not even half over. So, I'll be back. I'll try to get back to my routine posting. I feel a bit better today. Here's a picture from our Seattle trip last week. This is one of those eye opener picture of myself. Wide.. can you just say wide?! Wow. I'm on it!

Gone for the week.

Hi there - I'm not going to be around this week. Lots going on at work and the home front. Just letting you know - Be back next Monday. Hoping that April is a better month. This first three months of the year has only resulted in a gain of 8 pounds. Feeling frustrated, but also determined to beat this. See you in a week!

Bad bad girl

I've been bad. No exercise. Lots of whatever I want to eat. Diet Pepsi. Candy. Certainly no green smoothies lately. Did I mention No exercise?! You'd think I'd like it. That it would feel good. It doesn't. I feel gross. I feel fat. I feel unhealthy. I feel foggy headed and exhausted. I feel disgusted with myself.

I want the opposite of how I feel. I need to get back on track. My husband is still just rocking his new eating ways and his pants are literally falling off him. Now, I don't mind one little bit when my husband doesn't wear pants, but I will have a really hard time when he weighs less than me. I've said for years and years before I married him that I would never be with a man whose jeans I couldn't wear. So, when he gets skinnier than me ... SO ... I want him to be healthy and to keep up his good new habits. I just have to kick myself in the ass and get losing. Getting rid of caffeine AGAIN is first, sugar next and then back to my stair climbing and green smoothies. Why did I do this to myself again??? I'll never understand that broken part inside of me that makes these choices. *kicking self in ass now

Sunshine

I want some! I just started taking Vitamin D. Did you know that Vit D deficiency is one of the risk factors for breast cancer? Also, women in the Pacific Northwest have a higher incidence? I wish we had enough sunshine to make up all the Vitamin D we need, but I started taking Vit D. I don't think that little capsule will have the same emotional effect that the warm, bright sunshine does, but I'm taking it all the same.

I'm tired and sick-ish and grumpy today. I don't have anything positive to say about myself or this week. I'm choosing to not dwell on the negatives, so I have little to say at all.

I loved Shelly's tulip pictures. They cheered me up yesterday. I realized that I have some buds on tulips I planted under my mailbox last year. I hope they bloom. I have been afraid to plant tulip bulbs about my new house because of all the squirrels that enjoy eating them for lunch. I will plant a few this fall and hope they are not noticed. I would have whole beds of them if I could. I love spring bulbs.

Well - here's hoping this week turns around!

Each day is a new day

This is what I've been saying to my almost 9 year old lately. I'm trying to help him not get discouraged and feel defeated. My message to him is that each day he gets to choose what kind of day he has. Good or bad, but at the end of the day, let it go and the next day is a new beginning to choose again.

I spend a lot of time beating myself up for the poor choices I make health wise. What I should have eaten, what I should have done, the stairs I didn't climb today, the work day that ran long. I was hearing myself talk to my boy this afternoon and realized I should be talking to myself as well. Each morning I get to choose what kind of day I'm going to have and just because I mucked it up yesterday with tomato soup and cheesecake at my favorite restaurant today I can celebrate my successes. Well, maybe tomorrow I can celebrate a success or two. Not today. Grins. But I am going to practice what I preach and allow myself a new start tomorrow.

Friends - Cyber and Otherwise

'Well, hello cyber friend' was a friendly greeting I received at church this weekend. It was from someone who I certainly consider a friend, but that I interact with more online than in person. We both live very busy lives and our social circles are peripheral. I have to say though, It was great to see her for a brief moment. Inspite of having been awhile since we have spoke in person, there was a connection and an awareness of what was going on with each other because of our cyber interactions. It made me happy. It made me feel cared about. It made me think. It made me realize that if I didn't have blogs (that I read, as well as this one), facebook, email, texting or whatever else, I would not feel as connected. I honestly don't have extra time. I don't spend much face-to-face social time. Whatever time I do have, I choose to spend with my family almost always. So, my cyber friends definitely matter. The love and support I feel here, in this blog - it matters. There's only a handful of you who read, but you matter. Thanks for being my friend. Thanks for caring. Thanks for making me feel like I matter. I am thankful for my friends, cyber or otherwise.