I'm at risk for: diabetes, high blood pressure, joint failure, heart attacks/arrhythmias, many cancers. You rarely encounter obese old people with any quality of life.
I have three children.
I want to know my grandchildren.
I will feel better about myself.
I will feel better in general.
I will be able to pick up things off the floor without difficulty.
I will look better in clothes.
My head will be clearer - perhaps I'll be a bit smarter.
I'll have more energy.
I'll be less emotional and more even tempered.
I'll be a better mother.
I'll be able to be an example of healthy living to my kidlets.
I'll handle life's stresses better.
Find myself again and be proud of myself.
I want my kids and my husband to be proud of me, not embarrassed.
Elleri would love it if I felt like wearing a dress.
I could shop in 'normal people' stores.
I wouldn't be driven by food anymore - maybe even not have cravings.
More energy - did I mention I want more energy?
I think I need to see a shrink to figure out what my problem is. It has to all be in my head. Sigh. There are plenty of REALLY good reasons. I know what to do. I even know how to make it happen. Yet, I don't do it. I don't make it happen. Maybe hypnosis. Maybe I'll just clean out my pantry.
Jill, I love your raw honesty. Been keeping you and this journey in my prayers.
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